I... don't know what to say. I hope we could probably all meet up and start again one day, but it seems unlikely. Everyone's moved on. Hell, I don't even know if I could commit to things like 3 day limits for posts anymore. But I sure do miss this. Sometimes I feel guilty, like if I had paid more attention or have been more active, I could have influenced the community in some way. At the very least, I could have had more battles, adventures, and memories. But I spread myself thin back then. Even though I was in middle/high school I had too many obligations and interests that I burned out. Turns out, I mostly wanted to do nothing. It makes me sad to think that, and makes me wish I could have had just a little more of what our little site offered.
I remember joining some time in 2006. Tyzrk (god, it's been a long time since I typed that...) was born, I got away with clearly imbalanced skills, and had fun typing posts in half in hour to the trendy j-pop/rock music at the time. Battles would go typically for about three days before it got ripe for voting, then we'd rinse, repeat. Some time later, when my attention for this site was more faded, things changed. People changed, expectations of quality changed, and I got lost behind. Most of the old friends I had on here had left and disappeared, including pretty much fucking everybody in my clan, rendering what little networking and work I put towards it useless. I'm not bitter. I just missed the old group of quite short friends I had. FarStriker was my rival in the sense that we both were sort of in the same amount of experience, skill, and character power. TDK was a mod and, as I remembered it, was sort of like a father trying to yell at and control us crazy kids. I had two clan members, Pomimies and Magnus, both of whom I liked very much, but only saw them basically once when I first battled them and invited them into the clan, shortly after which they vanished. We never got to do clan fights or anything cool like that... but some times, I sort of wish we did.
But damn, that's taking the old of the old times.
There were new authorities (or maybe they were always there, and I had just noticed), new respects, and I felt somewhat lost. People that came later than I did became more important than me, some even got modded. I'll admit I did get jealous, but they were more involved than I was, and I certainly didn't envy the work that was ahead of them. The two paragraph rule messed with me a lot longer than I wish to admit, and despite having what was considered probably one of the top 3 most powerful characters in the DI universe, I never felt like I ever outmatched anyone. Perhaps it was my humble fairness, or the fairness of the system. Perhaps I just didn't RP aggressively enough and never wanted to feel like I was better than anyone else. That or Tyzrk actually really sucked and I should have had a better vision for her.
OSO, Leboy, and the many others I have faced throughout the years have been great adversaries and friends, keeping me in check while also encouraging me to better myself. I only wish I put in more effort for you guys: three day limits were my only motivation most fights (and even then, three days usually weren't enough), I put crummy efforts into my writing and thoughts, and I honestly felt like after some point in 2008, all of my fights ended in time outs. I am sad to say with this place, I have regrets, and that my favorite battles were my earliest, where I wrote quite a little (but not too little), and trolled Tyzrk a lot by making most of her wounds self inflicted. Reading my stupid jokes in my first few years here bring me joy. Reading the stuff I did later on strangely made me sound like a better writer, but I took a more serious approach, though I still had some memorable 'moments'. I don't know how I stand creatively nowadays; I feel like I wouldn't be able to be competent (or, more competent, as it were) if we were to pick up from where we left.
Anyways, it's been about two years since anything's really happened here (or the second site), literally. It's probably been a good five years or so since we've had good activity. I still have both DI sites on my bookmarks, despite the other one now being completely out of commission. I still check both weekly, foolish as it is. I'm a real nostalgia kind of guy, and it's sad to see that this place now occupies a feeling of nostalgia in my mind.
_________________ Tyzrk, the Arch-Wizard
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