As always, Ochres presence was filling Musalis with awe, more than she could comprehend. Her mind tried to grasp the music he filled the world with, only to fail and try again. At the same time, she enjoyed the music, and she looked at him and studied hid features, trying to remember them, because she could use his appearance as inspiration for some of her most beautiful songs.
While all of this used up several times her normal mind capacity, she had to listen to his words at the same time. And yet she understood every single word, and could remember it. She suspected that being a God he changed her with his mere presence to enable her to widen her mind enough to take in all of the tons of information his being bombarded her with.
Due to this, he made her feel much more alive than she normal was, it had to be somewhat like the thing people experienced when they drank too much beer, just more beautiful, musical and without the following headache. The only problem was that reality was kicked out of her attention, and she often used some time to adjust to her normal unlife after her God had left her.
So she stood there, tried to get a look at the reality, which as for now seemed for her to hide behind the faces of both her God and Drakol.Focus. You need to come back. You are in the middle of a battle
, she tried to tell herself.
But before she could comply, her thought continued to drift, on to the things Ochre had spoken of. ...understand your feelings...
What was she feeling?...physical attraction...
Oh, right. Musalis thought back, to find out what she knew about physical attraction.
Musalis was at the temple, attending a lesson the monks gave a young couple which had run away from their families together. The couple looked into each others eyes with feelings she did not understand than, but she guessed they were quite similar to the ones she was experiencing now.
"You have to understand.", one monk started, "That these feelings are given by the Gods, and are the most precious thing in this world.
But even though, be wary. They are also dangerous.
It is easy to give in to the love, and to loose yourself in it, and you loose contact to reality, living in a dream world. Dream worlds are nice as long as they last, but they are terrible when they burst, and hit your face back into reality. Therefore, you must not loose yourself to love.
On the other hand, don't ignore your feelings, for they are part of you. Ignoring them would be like ignoring your arms."
Musalis had just shrugged at the thought of being without arms, and had almost started to laugh. Another monk sent her a look that made her leave the lesson.
Later she had heard that the two had followed the advise she had not heard all of, and had become happy together. Now she regretted not taking the matter seriously, and missing the lesson. She could have learned vital information she now desperately needed.
So, no help from her memories or her God, other than that it was Okay to have these feelings. She would have to sort out herself what to do. Well, in some way, that made sense - these were her feelings after all.
The voice of Drakol pulled her back into the real world. He asked a good question, which she had been trying to find the answer to all this time: What now?"Well. You said you have places to go, and stuff to do... and I... I will..."
Musalis struggle to put her thoughts and feelings into words."...I... I want to follow you! You said you would let me if I survived this battle. Though it hurts my soul to think of fighting you, I will do it to get the chance to be with you."
Musalis drew her dagger, and made herself ready."Do anything you can - I will survive. For you."